Lemmy is full of plenty of people who hate me for being trans and disabled. And way too many self-identified leftists who think I’m being trans and disabled the wrong way and am therefore a right wing troll.
Most of the well known Lemmy instances lean communist, even if their admins can be quite socially regressive. As such I’ve accumulated a reputation as being a troublemaker for the left. I want to go make trouble for the right to fix my reputation. I wanna go talk shit, stir up drama, and get banned. I want the modlogs to say a bunch of open bigots hate me instead of the closet bigots who hate me now. I wanna ruin some nazis’ days and call them shitheads. Where do I go on the Fediverse to go make trouble for the open reactionaries?
I cannot know your experience and won’t pretend to.
Unless your objective is to be even more disliked and disrespected than you are now, being deliberately annoying will not get you far.
If you just want respect as a thinking, feeling human, you’re going to have to be respectful of other thinking, feeling humans, ignoring and blocking those who are too immature to have respect for others.
There are people out there who think that power is the source of respect. They are, of course, wrong. The only path to respect is through the elimination of power structures, so that respect can be mutually sought through understanding, not obedience.
I don’t like assholes, so I don’t seek them out. I try to give the assholes who engage with me the respectful engagement they crave but don’t deserve, then block the ones who stay assholes. If I feel surrounded by assholes, I disengage completely until I’ve figured out whether I’m actually the asshole or I’ve stumbled into a snakepit. (And everybody is sometimes an asshole. The secret is to not make it part of your identity or to assume that it’s part of theirs.)
Life is so much more pleasant when disagreements are respectful engagements with learning opportunities instead of just screaming matches.
Good luck on your journey.